7.19.2024
"______, we've met a lot over the past few years. This is the first meeting where you're smiling spontaneously."
That's it. After struggling for 3 years to persuade myself I was where I should have been, I'm finally free. I shut in my creative self and drugged myself with video games and THC, forcing myself to chase conventional "success."
Now I'm where I thrive- the uncertainty and instability of normal life. Being pushed to my limit. Having to use my brain, that feels like it's fallen asleep. With each passing day I feel stronger ambition, my energy slowly returns. Over the course of these weeks, I've lost much of the 60 pounds of extra weight gained since I started medical school. No longer,
💠 I feel free💠
5.19.2024
...
My eyes burn. My back hurts. I feel tired.
Not enough energy to feel sad, angry, or as terrified as I probably should be given my circumstances.
I want out.
2.8.2024
Need one more section after this for my OCD.
3 exams next week: anatomy written + practical, and MSK/Derm.
Procrastinating right now.
2.17.2024
Turned 26.
Time keeps on moving, into the future
27, 28, 28, ..., 71, 72, ...
I wonder,
How much longer will I update this site
How much longer will I-
Struggle to be happy
I don't believe in true happiness. Only moments of joy floating around on a dying planet
What a wonderful thought to have on my birthday...
Time keeps on moving, into the future
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